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mmmmm.

i have a friend who brought out the best in me & made two days go by faster. i have a friend who made me laugh & ate ice cream with me. i have a friend who watched garden state with me & helped create a dvd.
i have a friend named courtney.

in the duration of 24 hours the two of us put together a dvd for matt & colin.
filling them in on what was happening over a months time.

it was fun, but only made it harder...and made me miss him even more.

i hate time right now.
it doesnt seem to want to cooperate.

ahh.
12 days
40 days

ughhh
im all choked up.

why does it have to be this way.
1st colin leaves & we could barley get enough of eachother.

& now marlee leaves to camp today.
wow. like seriously when i hugged her i got a heart ache.

then, just now courtney tells me she leaves when im in israel.

fuck.
perfect word for what im feeling right now. if you know
me well enough i don't use that word often. only when it is needed.
appropriate; very appropriate.

3 people. 3 important people that i won't get to see each one of
their beautiful faces for 2 months each.
as my eyes swell up...why does this have to be so hard.

israel is something i have been waiting for but damnit! why does it have to get in the way?

i love you courtney:D

2 weeks.
6 weeks.

work again tonight.
at least i know i will be getting paid.

colin sent me message again today.
couldn't be happier. he actually takes
the time to say hi to me. means the absolute
world to hear from him because i know he is
so busy in europe.

yeahh.
graduation party tomorrow. i can't wait to see
certain people but should be interesting.
ohh but did i mention ex boyfriend's sisters party
haha oohh don't you just love life?

we'll see how that one goes. :D

16days.
39days.

ahhh good.
something fun & exciting at last. i mean don't get me wrong this summer has been fun but lately i just needed something to do to get my mind off things.
ie; israel, missing colin

after work last night i went to katies.
so glad i did that. she always seems to bring that craziness out of me. took pictures haha of course.

[jueves]
one o'clock
marlee & i went to buffalo exchange and urban outfitters yeaaahhh.
you know sometimes marlee & i get along like best friends & it's so eventful.

four o'clock
well now i am out to a party
then to work again.

peace.

17days.
40days.

so i definitely woke up to the annoying buzzing of my phone by my bed side.
thanks melvin.

im always anxious now.
" " bored.

i hate it.
waiting for the day to come to go over seas is just not coming quick enough. let alone, i miss someone so much & it's tearing me up.

PRO* a chance of a life time
CON* can't see that special someone for 2 fricking looooooong months

the countdown continues to slowly creep to its finish.
israel: 18 days.
return from israel to see him: 41 days. [huge sigh]

i seriously feel like i'm going through a time warp.
i haven't written a live journal entry since back in the 7th grade. kind of crazy i know, but katie started one [thanks for the influence] & i thought "hey" what the heck why not make one again.

so now to take a step back...here i begin to express myself again through writing.




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